i really miss you
but i can feel you don't even miss me
i just wanna to hug you
u said we think differently
what you want and what i want is different
should i just let it go?
i really miss you
the harder i try, the distance we become
i really just wanna see you
but maybe it is time for us to say goodbye
i really don't want but i just feel that we are not meant to be together anymore
sorry for everything
i shouldn't
it really hurts me
my heart really feels pain
pain till at one point i don't feel anything else
my body just gone numb

thanks
goodbye
take care
all the best
don't worry

i am nothing but a burden

i don't want be a burden to you anymore

i don't want to hold you just because of my study

if you wanna break

just break

i am ok

i don't want to think about it anymore

i know i love you a lot

and i know i care bout you a lot

and i know this is killing you

if you wanna break but you're afraid to harm me

tell me after this saturday

don't worry

i will be fine

i am afraid i can't stop myself being thinking

thinking of letting go this relationship

i want you to love me, to care me, to be with me

but all i get is waiting

everyday

i am hoping to have a surprise from you

everyday

i wish you can give me a little bit of time to spend with me

i know you are busy

but i really want to see you

yea i remember, you had once said, you prefer to be with friends

haih

i just miss you

i really thinking of letting go this relationship

someone advised me before,

i should cut it and get the pain now rather than drag the whole things into a mess

haih

haih

haih

haih

haih

haih

haih

T^T

do you know why i think negative

lately, you acted strangely
you don't let me know anything bout you
you don't let me touch your iphone
you don't let me see your facebook
no longer have the luxury of hugging you
and you really don't mind not seeing me anymore

am i really that sticky?
if you feel i am not good
you can just let me know
we can break

i ask you yesterday that question
and you said because i kept think negatively
i push you away

i guess everything is because of me
i guess i am not a good lover

i try my best to love you
to be with you
but i think
what i do is a mistake

i did ask myself
when i court you at that time
is it my fault?
is it my fault to fall in love with you

i really want someone to love me
to be with me


i guess is me
the problem is with me

everyone doesn't like me
is ok
even my own family doesn't love me
is ok
i told myself i don't mind
as long i still have you
but i guess i giving you too much pressure

i told myself is ok that if we break up
but i guess i am not ok at all

i scare my you leave me just like
i know you told me to let go the past
but it is not easy
for me
to see someone leaves because of another person
it hurts

but i rather you tell me you got someone else than cheating me behind
this is what i feel

i afraid of myself
i don't know what am i trying to do
i keep on thinking negatively
i know i push you away
i don't blame you
i just blame myself

i cried
i cried for an hour
i keep on thinking of the memories we has
i just too miss you
i scare you will leave me

i made up my mind
i decide to do something bout it
for you and me
hopefully i won't regret it

this movie makes me think back my secondary school life

a lot things that happened in that time

happy moments

crazy moments

sad moments

i treasure all those moments

in this movie

it portrays 遗憾 

i don't want my life to have regret

i want to love all people around me

in this movie

the actress did said something like this:

love is the best when we are still not together but we are in love with each other, once, we are coupled, we no longer feel the same enthusiasm to be with each other.

if possible
i want to write again our story in a different way
but i guess
we can't really change what we had done
i guess human really live with regrets
i know this would be one of my greatest regret
but i still need to do so

been thinking lately

what i should do and shouldn't do

what i think is good for me and what is not

i know it is not easy

i know i need a lot of courage to do so

but everything can be sort out eventually

i just got to make the first step

from friend to lover to enemy
from shy to happy to sad and suffer
the breakup part is the most painful
but once the sadness is gone
we will be better
how long for us to take to heal?
that's depend on how much do you love him/her

don't hate him/her for leaving you

treasure him/her

just because he/she leaves you

doesn't mean all the memories you had with him/her are fake

good or bad

he/she is part of your life

treasure the memories you had with him/her

maybe from there

you can find a closure for yourself

and in the future

you can love someone better and treasure that person.

it is funny to see certain people get intimidate by me
they try to boycott me
laugh die me
i just wanna say
do whatever it makes u happy
i am ok with it
i don't mind any more
because i am sure someone will stand on my side

kenny you can do it

don't think negative

be happy

and everything will be fine

never meet before such a complainer
seriously she is a bitch
before you know how to complain about others
try to reflect on yourself
maybe you will see yourself have more things to complain about
seriously you are bitch

if i die
who knows
who cares
if i don't even appear
you all might find it better
you all would be much happier without me bugging into your life

hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself

seeing the pictures we had
it makes me wanna cry
i miss the old days we had
i am so stupid
why i destroy it

我真的爱你
想你
不想放弃
T……T

if i did not say
if i did not request
maybe we be together forever
why i must open my mouth
why i can't beat the feeling of missing you
why i can't wait till next time to see you
why i just can't trust you
i really love you
but why i always do things that hurt you
if i good enough
we can be together forever
but why
why do i always do the same mistake
why i don't learn from the first time
why
i hate myself
i miss you
i miss the memories we had
i can't really let go
i don't want to lose it

i don't want to break
i miss you
i read what you wrote in msn profile message
it hurts that i done so many bad things
i cry
i want to stop cry but it hurts a lot
i hate myself

never know it can be such as pain

hurt my finger

but the pain wasn't pain at all compares to the pain in my heart

but i don't blame you

coz it is me

i know you told me that is not my fault or your fault

it just the matter of our attitude

but i want to blame myself

i really hate myself

i hate myself

i don't wish to see myself

the last time you will call me that name again

can't listen it anymore

but i won't blame you

coz is me

i hate the way i think

the way i react

the way i want

myself

i hate every thing about me

i just hate

i miss you