i hate myself

wish myself just die

don't exist

should i?

or shouldn't i?

being alone

i guess i just have to bear with it

i being alone since last time

why now can't?

maybe i love you too much?

i shouldn't lock u like a bird being locked in a cage

if i love you

i should let you go

haih

i am sorry for things that i did

i know apologising couldn't change the reality of the mistakes that i did

i know i always do the talking

but didn't do the action

you told me that we are not suitable to be together

not because of whoever have the problem

instead

it is because we just not meant to be together

i don't know

sad

i should not cry

i must not cry

i should not let you suffer the pain

if i love you

i should just let you be happy

few days later

we will have our anniversary

but deep down

we know we can't go on forever

we just got to let go

i know you're tired

i know i need to be stronger

people said:

"trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew"

it is true

forgetting you is something i can't do it and i won't do it

to me

you are one of the best things in my life

never know that i been loved by someone so much

never know that having you makes me learn so much about life

i don't know why i kept crying whenever i thought bout it

i know you and i did our best but we just can't

yes

i know we just have to move on

i can't always rely on you

and i shouldn't be a burden to you

i need to let go

for you or for me

this is the best

i know i have to let go

i know i need to be a little stronger

take care and thanks for all the memories

don't worry about me

i will be a little stronger

this year

so many things (super duper bad) happened to me

laptop, health, relationship

haih

kill me please

people said:

love does not necessary to own it

i think i shouldn't own you

i just got to let you go

i shouldn't keep you with me

being with me

you becoming tire, lifeless, upset, moneyless, and annoying

not only that

you always get yourself into troubles

i guess 1 millions of sorry also couldn't make it right

if i love you

i should let you go

because letting you go can make you happy

but i know you scare that i will devastate

don't worry about me

i can survive

20 years of being alone

it taught me to be alone

though the beginning of without you will be a little hard

don't worry about me

just promise me

you need to take care yourself

drink more water

eat full and on time

when driving remember not to empty your mind

please take vitamin c too as you always get sick