i hate myself more than anyone at this moment

i hate myself

i just wanna be in my room and let myself lock inside

i hate seeing myself

i hate myself to think this and that

all these are bad

but why i keep on thinking bout it?

i feel like i am going to lose myself

i just want u care

i just want to see u more often

maybe i am not suitable to be in love

maybe i am not suitable to be with u

maybe i just better go away from this world.

sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead

you are you

i can't find someone like you

you have your special place in my heart

i could not just simply replace you

i can't forget you too

coz what you had gave to me

love, care, attention, happiness, sadness, jealousy,

all these will be in my memories

i can't let go of you

i love you more than ever

a quick thought

all my friends are going to oversea

some go for study

some go for vacation

i am happy for them that they can go

i hope they are safe when they are in oversea

but in my heart

i wonder when i will able to go oversea?

i never being to oversea

even in the nearest place

Singapore or Thailand

i wanted to go

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angry

i know i shouldn't saying this but i really wanted to say

i know i shouldn't think this way but i can't stop myself

my value: i should accept people, not selfish, not mean, no aggression, shouldn't talk bad about someone

but i am seriously cannot deny what i am feeling

if i don't really say it out

i will go crazy

i hate that person

i don't like that person

that person's existence is arghhhhh

i really hate that person

FUCK

(sorry to be vulgar, i just couldn't control myself)

sorry

first time

u wrote a long sms to me

first time

u used a very high pitch tone

i guess

i cross the border

i am sorry

i know i am idiot

i know i always hurt u

i know i am bad

sorry

T^T

i just wanted u to love me

love me by telling me

love me by caring me

i know i am bad bad bad

i don't let u go out

if u wanted to go out, u have to ask permission

i am sorry that u been locked up in a cage

i am confuse with myself

i want u to go out but i am jealous especially when someone betters than me talk to u

am i not confident with myself, u, or our love?

am i not trusting u?

am i not ur ideal couple?

i am afraid of losing u

the past really affect me

i am scare that u will be taken by someone else

u told me that if one day, we break up, it is not because of someone else, it is because of me

why?

why i keep think negatively??????????

i really hate that application

sorry

i know i shouldn't block u

i just hate it

i hate the feeling of being insecure

u are good

too good till sometimes, i questioned myself that are u really meant for me or am i just dreaming?

many people out there are better than me

why would u want this lousy guy?

i always think that

i scare

i don't know

i just scare

i love u called me

i love the way i hug u

i love the smell of u

i love the kiss

i love u scold me *pai chi*

i love u 

19/4/2011

at this hour

i should get some sleep

i need to wake up at 8am later today

but i can't sleep

my heart is missing you

my brain is full of your images

i am looking at the pictures we took

all the perfect pictures

all the sweet memories

i know you're sleeping soundly

and i am happy that you are sleep well

i can't really wait to see you again

i miss you

and i am trying my very best not to let my negative thinking to influence me

i wanted to achieve this time

i don't want just talk

i want my action to be acted

you always treat me good no matter how bad i did

this time

i will

i will make it different