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in the past 1 month, a lot things was happened on me. things that happened aren't good. things that causes me to feel pain. last 2 week, i know one of my friend was diagnosed of untreatable illness. although i know him just roughly 1 month, but it seems like we know each other more than 10 years. besides, i realize that human's mind and feeling aren't that easy to understand. i tried. but i failed. i don't know what is real what is false. everything seem to me is like a dream coz once i woke up from the a beautiful dream, i will get back into worst night mare.