feeling #1

older chinese generations always said that " force to be together are not happy".

i guess this phrase are damn rite.

there are a lot things we cannot force to be together.

when two person are not similar to each other, no matter how strong is the love is, both of them, still will have a lot of arguments.

there are some part of me said, "let go of it", "don't force yourself", "let yourself to have another try with others".

but, it is not easy.

as feelings are involved.

when u grew urself into the relationship, love, hate, time, happy, sad, angry, satisfied, are the factors to make me to think twice of letting go.

it is not easy as we all said, let go lo...

but, as we think more deeper, we knew that love is there.

yes, there are moments we are very sad, angry, wish to break, but there are moments we felt the happiness, the sweetness, the feeling of being cared by someone.

sometimes, it is not that easy as we said.

but, as i think more deeper, and as my feeling more calm, i felt that i cannot live without YOU.

in somewhere in my heart, i wish that u felt the same too.

i wanted to know what is ur true feeling, what are u thinking, what do u really want.

i always guess what u want.

but, i always wrong.

and i don't want to be wrong as i wanted us to be more closer.

coz if i know more about u, and i know more bout what u like and not, maybe our relationship can be more better.

however, i guess to understand a person is not easy.

coz even to understand myself what i want, i also sometimes confused.

no tittle 1

today, as i came back from klcc, the sky was so dark as it's wanted to cry.

that time, my feeling was also kinda emo.

in my heart, i kept asking god, "are you sympathy me?", "are you crying because you know i wanted to cry?"

as i came down from the bus, the sky was getting darker and the rain as it knew my feeling, getting heavier.

i waited at the bus stop to wait for the rain to subside.

however, the rain was getting heavier.

as i stood at a corner of the bus stop, the rain was drip on my shirt.

so, i move to another side, but the rain like playing with me.

it just can't let me stand at one side.

it kept drip to my shirt.

at that moment, i felt like i am so shit in relationship, now even the rain wanna play on me.