i am scare of losing you.
i am scare you don't want me.
i love you.
i know you know that i love you and i know you love me too.
but
all the words that you told me
"future, no one knows", "maybe something might change", "don't think bout the future"
all these make me scare.
i don't want to lose you.
i am used to being with you.
i scare you might not want me anymore.
all my weaknesses.
i scare you might look for a better one.
coz a lot more better people compare to me out there.
i don't think i am good.
and to me you are good.
i do believe that a lot people will like you because you are good.
i save all the SMS that you sent to me.
it always make me feel touch.
especially those SMS you said you love me.
these few weeks, we had fights.
i always hate myself for fighting with you on silly matters.
i know you won't do things that can hurt me.
i do believe you won't.
but sometimes, my brain just keep play the trick on me.
always distorting my thinking.
and i am sorry for that.
apologise is not something new to you nor to me.
i always apologise because all the stupid mistakes i did.
i know i am kinda annoying.
but i never want to stop telling you that i love you.
coz i don't want waste one minute of not telling you how much i love you.
actually i scare that you will leave me one day.
i know that will come.
i am wishing it won't comes.
T^T
