3/10/2009

i know i always think on negative things

i am really sorry

i try to change myself

i really love u

u give me a lot a lot of good memories

the most scary thing that i always think of is that u will leave

leave becoz i am nothing good

T^T

i don't wanna lose u

what is this feeling?

why so sad when i think of u will leave me?

why it can hurt me?

why it can cut my hurt like a knife cut on my hand while splashing lemon or salt into the wound?

u always appear in my brain

am i going crazy?

why i can see everything is bout u?

why i always think of u?

why i really care bout everything that u do or u say?

why should i really be jealous of people around u?

what i really should do?

i am going crazy

T^T

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who am i?

who really need security feeling.

i need someone who can love me.

i mean by action and by feeling, that person must able to show it.

i know i am greedy.

i know i am selfish.

i know am childish.

i also know that i am demanding.

u did a wonderful job.

i know it is not easy for u.

there are a lot problems with me.

1. i am fear of separation.

2. i am demanding.

3. i have bipolar, can be happy now and next thing i can be unhappy.

4. i am really really really think a lot of negative things and this really affect others.

5. i don't listen to u.

6. i love to to be with u, never enough for me to see u, hear u, and touch u.

7. i do not know how to care for u.

8. maybe i am having trust issue.

9. last but not least, i always hurt u which i am regretting to do it.

U

u

u know who am i referring to.

only u is all i ever wanted.

there are a lot of memories with u.

u gave the new meaning to my life.

ur kindness, patience, caring, love, trust and a lot more.

if can, i really wish to pick the star from the sky just for u.

i am nothing.

nothing good on me yet u still love me.

thanks