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Thursday, December 2, 2010

dream

i dreamed bout us
in the dream
we were not happy
we were arguing
we were bout to break up
i cried
i felt i lost the direction
direction in anything
don't know what to do
don't know where to go
all i know was i got to find you
in the dream
i was wandering around
my mind was going to explode
my mind couldn't think well
all i know i wanted to talk to you
in the dream
it was dark
i can't see anything
i saw some people
however
something in my heart told me that they are bad
still
i just ignored them and i walked passed by them
what in my mind was i just wanted to look for you
i don't want to be alone
i cried
i woke up
the dream was so intense
the dream was so vivid
the dream was so real that i felt that way in reality

i know i am very selfish
i know i wanted to lock you up like a bird in a cage
you wanted to fly but i blocked your freedom
i tried my hardest to let you fly
but i failed
i failed so hard that things didn't turn well
things get very ugly
you told me nothing to be worry bout
but deep down in my heart i know something is wrong
something is not right
something that wanted to tell me that maybe you might not love me like use to be
i am trying my hardest to push the thoughts away
i am convincing myself that you are love me
but why my mind kept thinks negatively?
maybe i grew attached to you
maybe i just can't accept if we were no longer together
maybe i couldn't stand by my own feet
maybe i am use to be with you
yet why would i thinking all those?
you are still here with me
you are still belong to me
you are still telling me that you are mine
you still telling me that you love me
you still telling me that your heart was caught by me and it is not easy to get it back
why am i so stupid?
why am i want to think all those things that aren't happen?
one thing for sure i know is that
i love you more than anything
i can give up my own life for you
you are more than anything
you will get the first place in my heart
i love you