i don't like this feeling
feeling of being alone
i being alone since forever
i can't really remember since when i felt this way
i just don't like being alone
i hate that theory that i learned during i was in diploma
the theory said
everyone is born to be alone in this world
even you found your another half, you still alone in most of the things that you need to do
no matter how i dislike this theory
but deep down in my heart, i know it is true
everyone is alone
these few days, this feeling is so strong that i couldn't think right
my mood is ups and downs
in the noon, i could be jolly as i could be
during midnight, i became sort a like depression patient
my mood is becoming bipolar
my mind is in the state of agony
negative thoughts kept attacking my mind
felt like my head was about to explode
i guess what i want is that a simple care
simple hug
i just want to assure myself that i am worth to be in this world
i want to assure myself that my existence is important to you
i know i need a lot of reassurances
and i know it is annoy to keep reassure
please bear with me
i just need you to be with me
