back to blogs~ ^^

hell yeah~

i am back from my depression weeks.

LOL

last week i was depressed for coursework marks that i scored and the way i done my exam.

hmm~

but today i am ok jor

coz these few days, kinda good things happened to me.

^^

bought myself a X6 NOKIA cell phone.

^^

went to eat lunch with tracy, mun fang, angel, and woon ping.

nice lunch.

spend a lot of times with you.

haha

suddenly forgot bout my exams and coursework marks.

3 Oh!3 ft. Neon Hitch - Follow Me Down

3 Oh!3 ft. Neon Hitch - Follow Me Down

i am so in love with this song.

though this song is one of the alice in wonderland, i do like it.

(nothing against with this movie, sorry just that i hate clown, and johnny deep, u look like a clown to me in that movie).

LOL

Take me take me outta here it makes me
Feel so, feel so na na nana na

Baby baby here we all crazy
You don’t have to worry na na nana na

So follow me down
Out of this town
Girl you’re moving way too slow
So follow me down, I’ll show you around
There’s a place we gotta go

Follow me, follow me
Fa la-la-la-la [x2]
Fa la-la-la-la

Dancing, walking clock keeps on talking
They sing, they sing la la-la-la-la

Gentlemen and ladies, animals and babies
We sing, we sing na na na-na-na

So follow me down
Out of this town
Girl you’re moving way too slow
So follow me down, I’ll show you around
There’s a place we gotta go
[ Follow Me Down mp3 on http://musicjuzz.blogspot.com ]

Follow me, follow me
Fa la-la-la-la [x2]
Fa la-la-la-la

Follow me, follow me
Fa la-la-la-la [x2]
Fa la-la-la-la

Ahh ah oh
Ah ah ah oh
Ah ah ah oh oh

Down down down down. Oh okay
Down, down. Down down. Oh, oh

Follow me, follow me
Fa la-la-la-la [x2]
Fa la-la-la-la
Follow me, follow me
Fa la-la-la-la [x2]
Fa la-la-la-la

lost and found

yippieee yea yea yipiee~

i found back my precious

so happy yet feel so weird bout the whole situation.

LOL

last week, i went back to mum's house, she told me that i left it in her house.

but as i remembered i brought back to my home.

i got my supporter too.

my bro saw that i wore it.

so weird.

LOL

besides, my mum usually will let me know if i left anything in her house.

however this time, she did not let me know.

hmmm

just feel everything very weird.

anyway, it came back to me.

i am happy.

^^

moods

mood of today : mixture of happy and worry

i am happy due to two reasons.

first reason.

i saw people that i haven't seen for ages.

they can't recognized me.

they just walked in front of me without looking at me.

am i really change that much?

i hope i did.

coz i really don't wanna be my old self again.

i wanna be the new kenny.

i think i am succeeded in doing that.

should i be proud?

hmm~ sometimes, i still think i am the old kenny.

with the fatty look.

LOL self-condemning.

second reason.

hmmm, i am extremely happy because able to meet you.

you really able to make my day to be happy.

feel happy to be with you.

LOL

to me, you are very important person.

^^V

while i am worry due to two reasons.

first reason.

this reason is being following me since last year.

i am superb extremely for god sake i am worry of my hair.

my hair kept fall i can see the flesh of my head skin.

oh my holly cow.

i went to guardian.

i bought myself a hair treatment for growing hair.

i never thought that i really need to use it so early.

anyway, it is not cheap though.

i also did consume vitamins for my hair every morning since last month.

hope will have positive effect by next month or next next month.

*cross finger*

second reason is the exam is around the corner.

yet i am still so procrastinate.

i am lazy to start my revision.

oh god, really please help me.

i need YOUR mighty guidelines.

i know i never pray for YOU.

please help me please please.

kelly clarkson if i can't have you

right now i am bombing myself with kelly clarkson's song

so in love with this song

IF I CAN'T HAVE YOU

nice song...

Hearts break too fast
When the sentimental
Won't stay, won't last
When it's love at first sight
So why are my convictions
Blinded by your spotlight
Can't breathe, can't sleep
Need some medication
I'll kiss goodbye to my reservations
I know there's other fish out in the sea
Not for me
I want you

If I can't have you
Then I don't want anyone
I don't want anyone
If I can't have you
Then all the damage has been done
Baby
We can break these rules
If you wanna have some fun
If you wanna have some fun
Think of all the love that you would lose (lose)
If I can't have you (If I can't have you)
If I can't have you (If I can't have you)

Hot beat, cold sweat
Thoughts slippin' under
Can't fight, no threat
Cause there's just no use
One look no hesitation
I'm slippin' into you
Forgive these eyes
These lips you're tasting
No time to waste on an invitation
My shame, my self control
Has suffered enough
And everybody wants to be loved

If I can't have you
Then I don't want anyone
I don't want anyone
If I can't have you
Then all the damage has been done
Baby
We can break these rules
If you wanna have some fun
If you wanna have some fun
Think of all the love that you would lose
If I can't have you (If I can't have you)
If I can't have you (If I can't have you)

I haven't seen the best that love has had to offer
They say perfection's always right around the corner
Could be true
But if I can't have you

If I can't have you
Then I don't want anyone
I don't want anyone
If I can't have you
Then all the damage has been done
Baby
We can break these rules
If you wanna have some fun
If you wanna have some fun
Think of all the love that you would lose
If I can't have you (If I can't have you)
If I can't have you (If I can't have you)
If i cant have you (if I cant have you)

Think of all the love that you would lose (lose)
If I can't have you

XD 

exam

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

EXAM coming soon

die lo...

i haven't start do my revision

why the time table for this semester all cramp into 4 days to end the whole exam?

die die die die die

friday (23/4) - psy 106 Quantitative Method

saturday (24/4) - mch 101 Mass Communication & psy 220 Career Guidance

monday (26/4) - psy 216 Exceptional Children - Development Disorder

why all come together?

die lo...

need to start kick my ass to make my ass to read

or else i really fark in the exam... LOL

 jia you

oooohhhh~

finally, i went back to my counselling session after being absent for bout 1 months.

hey, it is not my fault. K?

LOL

i called her the last time to postpone my session.

and the person who in charged said he will pass the message to my counsellor since she was had another session with other client at that time.

so it is not my fault.

clocks tick when i reached to CPCS today.

and my counsellor sat there and looked like she waited to me (i know she not coz she was eating something, let me zi lian a bit, k?)

when reached into the room, counsellor told me that she gonna end my session with her.

i felt ahhhh, ouuuhhhhh.

LOL

at times, i always don't want to go to session.

but, today i felt i will gonna miss it.

since i been with the sessions more than 4 months.

LOL

times really passed by quickly.

counsellor said i can stand alone to make all the decision.

i think she is right.

i can't depend on her forever.

i sure i can make it.

hmmm

*finger cross*

FARK OFF stupid idiot women!

mood?

first i wanna say FUCK OFF lady.

sorry being rude but it is my right to eat in the lrt.

i am not eating something like durian or nasi lemak.

i just ate the bread.

for god sake.

it is none of your business.

you pointed to me the symbol of do not eat in train.

how bout you?

stupid idiot farking lady.

you used the elevator while it stated there so big that it is meant for disabled people.

which part of your body is disabled?

except being fat and having a big ass.

arghhh~ damn angry at that stupid idiot farking lady.

FUCK OFF.

seriously.

sushi king

finally!

i ate you.

muahahaha (evil laugh).

sorry being so evil. LOL

so happy.

it is the time again.

sushi king have their members' day.

so nice to eat with you.

i am surprise that you will come and ask me go along to eat.

i told you last night that i wanna eat and today you asked me to eat.

thanks. ^^

my dear, don't play with me like that. please?

what the hell, where i put it.

just now it was there.

few hours later, it was gone.

where the hell it went to.

please come out.

i beg u.

don't play hide and seek.

my dear crystal bracelet.

T_T

i will really cry.

i need u for my upcoming exam.

don't leave daddy alone to go for war.

pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it is very important gift from other people.

T_T

fun to read

think bout it, i do have a lot of negative things.

think bout it, i am such a stupid person.

think bout it, i am nothing but troublesome.

think bout it, i am always make others to suffer.

think bout it, i always try to be strong to what i think but i can't at the end of it.

think bout it, i am nothing.

think bout it, why do i bother bout myself.

why do i need to pretend myself with a smile when i am really sad?

why do i really wanna be actor in front of the crowds.

who can i show real self to?

who can understand me?

i found you.

you.

think bout it, you are the person who i really search for.

think bout it, you are the person that i really need of.

think bout it, i don't really care bout others when i am with you.

think bout it, i really just want you.

think bout it, i don't want to think bout other things when i am with you.

think bout it, i can be myself even though not 100% but at least 80% of real self.

think bout it, i am me when i am with you.

=)

really can't help myself into falling in love to buy books.

lately being addicted to books.

not textbook by the way. (yeah??) trying to copy miss winnee. LOL

i am doom if she know that.

anyway, bought myself 2 books today.

first book is written by cecelia ahern : p.s. i love you and the second book is written by trudi canavan : prietess of the white.

as i started myself to read p.s. i love you, the very first chapter already had the impact on me so deep.

the grief of losing love one is hardly can bear by anyone.

to me, this book make me to think if one day, if i am gone with the wind and bury into the solid ground, does anyone will be grieving for me?

will there anyone to cry for me?

will there anyone to miss me?

will there anyone to think of me?

well, i am hoping there will.

love~

to me, you are everything.

without you is like trying to breath without air, to live life without food and water, to have fun without knowing what is fun.

I LOVE YOU

i don't want to leave you.

i am afraid you will leave me too.

is not that i am not trust you, is me.

i don't have trust to myself.

in my mind, you are the only thing that i keep thinking through the day and night.

i really treasure you.

i done a lot things that bad.

i know.

i really know.

i am regretting that i was hurting you last time.

please give me another chance.

i know it is not easy to trust me.

i really love you.

i just want you to be with me forever.

though i know i am difficult to be with.

i know i am such a troublesome person.

thanks for treating me so good.

i really hope it will be forever.

i don't want to lose you.

i just wanna hug you forever.