few days later

we will have our anniversary

but deep down

we know we can't go on forever

we just got to let go

i know you're tired

i know i need to be stronger

people said:

"trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew"

it is true

forgetting you is something i can't do it and i won't do it

to me

you are one of the best things in my life

never know that i been loved by someone so much

never know that having you makes me learn so much about life

i don't know why i kept crying whenever i thought bout it

i know you and i did our best but we just can't

yes

i know we just have to move on

i can't always rely on you

and i shouldn't be a burden to you

i need to let go

for you or for me

this is the best

i know i have to let go

i know i need to be a little stronger

take care and thanks for all the memories

don't worry about me

i will be a little stronger

this year

so many things (super duper bad) happened to me

laptop, health, relationship

haih

kill me please

people said:

love does not necessary to own it

i think i shouldn't own you

i just got to let you go

i shouldn't keep you with me

being with me

you becoming tire, lifeless, upset, moneyless, and annoying

not only that

you always get yourself into troubles

i guess 1 millions of sorry also couldn't make it right

if i love you

i should let you go

because letting you go can make you happy

but i know you scare that i will devastate

don't worry about me

i can survive

20 years of being alone

it taught me to be alone

though the beginning of without you will be a little hard

don't worry about me

just promise me

you need to take care yourself

drink more water

eat full and on time

when driving remember not to empty your mind

please take vitamin c too as you always get sick

the reason i cry is because i love you

i don't want to let you go

but this time i won't stop you

i want you to be happy

don't worry bout me

is you i am worry bout

always stomach pain

always get fever

always get flu

i am worry bout you

you don't worry me

just remember you must drink more water and take care of yourself

this time i give the decision for you to make

i won't beg nor stopping you

i just have to learn to accept

thankiew for all the memories you had gave me

thankiew for loving me and take care of me

thankiew for never abandon me

thankiew for never wanting to change me

thankiew for trust me

thankiew for changing yourself to suit me more

thankiew for tolerate my childishness

thankiew for being here whenever i needed you

thankiew for every moment that you spent with me

all these i will treasure it till i die

i know whatever happen, it is all my fault

from the beginning

i kept doing the same mistake

i never learn to be grateful nor a good lover

don't worry bout me

i am strong

don't worry bout me

whatever decision you are making

just be congruent to your heart

and don't have to worry bout me

i can accept it

annoying

i am annoying

i am pain in the ass

what ever you decide

i will respect and accept

i am a scumbag 

i am sorry

sorry for not try harder

i will accept the decision you will make

i won't blame you

i only will blame myself

i know you are right bout all the things that going around

i know you are right bout the reason we get into fighting

i know what type of person i am

greedy, dissatisfy, complainer, stupid,

all these and more which always bring us into fight

i know what type of person you are

and i know you had changed to another person to suit me

i should be grateful and appreciate it

yet i am a fool

what i did is beyond stupidity

i just complain and complain

i never really been a good lover

i am not deserve to be in a relationship

now

i am getting worst

i got so many bad attitude and also becoming ugly

i know there are more reasons to kick me away from your life

yet you did not

i want you

i want to rely on you sometimes

i am tired being fighting alone in this big world

i can't find anyone to talk with

you asked me to go out with my friends

i did

i did what you asked me to do

it just that my friends do not want to go out with me

and i wanted to find someone to talk to but none will listen to me

here i am, complaining again

should i let you go?

i just smurfs you a lot

but i can't be selfish

you are tired

should i just let you go?

i think i am terrible lover

sorry

i think i should think bout it seriously

thankiew for smurfing me too

i truly thanks you for smurfing me for all these while

now i know i can't find someone better than you

but it is not your fault

is me

i just want to be selfish

but i know i can't

smurfs you a lot

with my whole heart

but smurfs can't make it right

i am confused now

i just want you

but i can't be selfish

what can i do?

sorrrrrrrry

i feel stress but i don't have anyone to turn too

i feel all the weights are on my shoulder

i almost fall

i don't know how long can i still stand

i really wanted this friday to come yet this friday will be my doomed day

i am scare

but i got no one to turn too

i just want someone to help me

i felt everyone are thinking that i am superman

can do my own

i want someone to care too

i am tired

physically and emotionally

:(

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i realised i am not hating iphone

it just that i scare the application that u can use