like this lo ----> unhappy lo

i shouldn't be unhappy

but i am

i saw people's post

they went out with their lover

and i?

i am sitting in front of my laptop

looking at the facebook

reading and looking at their photos

making me jealous

:(

i wanna trust you

i don't know why i will keep checking on you

am i crazy?

i think i am

i know our relationship is not the same any more

i can sense it

it is totally different

i can feel that you treat me is no longer the same as used to be

i can't say it is your fault

coz i know whatever happened

all is because of me

i am stupid

i am not good

i am not suitable for everyone

i feel like if the world without me will be better

coz i am nothing good but the worst of the human being

i am just ignorance

i always think of the bad (s) instead of the good (s)

11.49

can u just break up because u wanna break up?

to me i can't

because the love is still there

people who know me

they thought i am easy going

if want to break up, i just break up

but in fact,

i can't

i will try to hold on to it

coz the love is there

and i don't want to lost everything that i being working on it

the moment the break up comes

all the memories, good and bad

sweet and sour

all come into my mind

at that point

surely break up it will be tough thing to do

1.24am

am i crazy?

am i stupid?

or am i just purely naive?

i just want a simple love

simple and sweet

i don't care bout the money nor material things

i am not those people who want things

all i want is a simple love

if you love me

please don't play my heart

my heart fragile

it is not strong like it used to be

the reason

because it completely trusts you

completely letting himself to love you

if you love someone else

be clean about it

i don't mind to be friend again if we really can't be lover

but please don't play with my heart

i rather to know the truth instead being lied

i hate myself more than anyone at this moment

i hate myself

i just wanna be in my room and let myself lock inside

i hate seeing myself

i hate myself to think this and that

all these are bad

but why i keep on thinking bout it?

i feel like i am going to lose myself

i just want u care

i just want to see u more often

maybe i am not suitable to be in love

maybe i am not suitable to be with u

maybe i just better go away from this world.

sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead

you are you

i can't find someone like you

you have your special place in my heart

i could not just simply replace you

i can't forget you too

coz what you had gave to me

love, care, attention, happiness, sadness, jealousy,

all these will be in my memories

i can't let go of you

i love you more than ever

a quick thought

all my friends are going to oversea

some go for study

some go for vacation

i am happy for them that they can go

i hope they are safe when they are in oversea

but in my heart

i wonder when i will able to go oversea?

i never being to oversea

even in the nearest place

Singapore or Thailand

i wanted to go

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