i know you are right bout all the things that going around

i know you are right bout the reason we get into fighting

i know what type of person i am

greedy, dissatisfy, complainer, stupid,

all these and more which always bring us into fight

i know what type of person you are

and i know you had changed to another person to suit me

i should be grateful and appreciate it

yet i am a fool

what i did is beyond stupidity

i just complain and complain

i never really been a good lover

i am not deserve to be in a relationship

now

i am getting worst

i got so many bad attitude and also becoming ugly

i know there are more reasons to kick me away from your life

yet you did not

i want you

i want to rely on you sometimes

i am tired being fighting alone in this big world

i can't find anyone to talk with

you asked me to go out with my friends

i did

i did what you asked me to do

it just that my friends do not want to go out with me

and i wanted to find someone to talk to but none will listen to me

here i am, complaining again

should i let you go?

i just smurfs you a lot

but i can't be selfish

you are tired

should i just let you go?

i think i am terrible lover

sorry

i think i should think bout it seriously

thankiew for smurfing me too

i truly thanks you for smurfing me for all these while

now i know i can't find someone better than you

but it is not your fault

is me

i just want to be selfish

but i know i can't

smurfs you a lot

with my whole heart

but smurfs can't make it right

i am confused now

i just want you

but i can't be selfish

what can i do?

sorrrrrrrry

i feel stress but i don't have anyone to turn too

i feel all the weights are on my shoulder

i almost fall

i don't know how long can i still stand

i really wanted this friday to come yet this friday will be my doomed day

i am scare

but i got no one to turn too

i just want someone to help me

i felt everyone are thinking that i am superman

can do my own

i want someone to care too

i am tired

physically and emotionally

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i realised i am not hating iphone

it just that i scare the application that u can use

i'm forever keeping my angel close.

are u the one who really loves me?

are u the one who really be there when i really need u?

would u be the one who shares my happiness, sadness?

would u be the one who is going to wipe away all my tears when i cry?

would u be the one who going to laugh with me till i old?

would u hold my hand till i die?

would u care about me when i needed someone to care?

i would.

i would do everything for u.

if u love me, i will love u with all my life.

i don't care bout others

i just care bout u.

2.28

am i good?

i don't know what i did is good or bad

i don't know whether the way i treat u is good or bad

i don't know whether do i kill u with my love

i don't know should i just continue with this love or not

i don't know

i love u

but all i can see is i am creating all the problems that lead to both of us suffering.

is it this what i want for us?

do i want u to be sad?

do i really love u or does my love cause u hurt?

i am confuse now

i am not clever

i am the most stupid person

sorry that i am not clever person

i know u like clever person

sorry

1.31am

my love causes pain

 break up?

final option?

lately being thinking a lot

why would keep you together if you are not loving me any more

you are not happy and i am not happy

i always thought love you to the fullest will ensure us to have happiness

you said you still love me

and i know

i can feel it

but i sometimes will think negatively

actually

is not your fault

i mean you are suitable to be in relationship

is me

you know

the things i want

the things i keep demand

is me

is me not suitable to be in relationship

you are right

loving someone shouldn't change him/her

love the way he/she is

but i am keep changing you

maybe i need to ask myself

do i really love you

or do i just wanna change you to become the person i wanted

at this moment

i ask myself

if you wanted to break up, can i accept?

and i told myself to accept it

all i know i want you to be happy

i don't want hurt you again

because of me

you had been sad for so many times

and i am feel sad too

i am angry with myself

if really break up

definitely i will sad

but we still need to face it

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