1.24am

am i crazy?

am i stupid?

or am i just purely naive?

i just want a simple love

simple and sweet

i don't care bout the money nor material things

i am not those people who want things

all i want is a simple love

if you love me

please don't play my heart

my heart fragile

it is not strong like it used to be

the reason

because it completely trusts you

completely letting himself to love you

if you love someone else

be clean about it

i don't mind to be friend again if we really can't be lover

but please don't play with my heart

i rather to know the truth instead being lied

i hate myself more than anyone at this moment

i hate myself

i just wanna be in my room and let myself lock inside

i hate seeing myself

i hate myself to think this and that

all these are bad

but why i keep on thinking bout it?

i feel like i am going to lose myself

i just want u care

i just want to see u more often

maybe i am not suitable to be in love

maybe i am not suitable to be with u

maybe i just better go away from this world.

sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead

you are you

i can't find someone like you

you have your special place in my heart

i could not just simply replace you

i can't forget you too

coz what you had gave to me

love, care, attention, happiness, sadness, jealousy,

all these will be in my memories

i can't let go of you

i love you more than ever

a quick thought

all my friends are going to oversea

some go for study

some go for vacation

i am happy for them that they can go

i hope they are safe when they are in oversea

but in my heart

i wonder when i will able to go oversea?

i never being to oversea

even in the nearest place

Singapore or Thailand

i wanted to go

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angry

i know i shouldn't saying this but i really wanted to say

i know i shouldn't think this way but i can't stop myself

my value: i should accept people, not selfish, not mean, no aggression, shouldn't talk bad about someone

but i am seriously cannot deny what i am feeling

if i don't really say it out

i will go crazy

i hate that person

i don't like that person

that person's existence is arghhhhh

i really hate that person

FUCK

(sorry to be vulgar, i just couldn't control myself)

sorry

first time

u wrote a long sms to me

first time

u used a very high pitch tone

i guess

i cross the border

i am sorry

i know i am idiot

i know i always hurt u

i know i am bad

sorry

T^T

i just wanted u to love me

love me by telling me

love me by caring me

i know i am bad bad bad

i don't let u go out

if u wanted to go out, u have to ask permission

i am sorry that u been locked up in a cage

i am confuse with myself

i want u to go out but i am jealous especially when someone betters than me talk to u

am i not confident with myself, u, or our love?

am i not trusting u?

am i not ur ideal couple?

i am afraid of losing u

the past really affect me

i am scare that u will be taken by someone else

u told me that if one day, we break up, it is not because of someone else, it is because of me

why?

why i keep think negatively??????????

i really hate that application

sorry

i know i shouldn't block u

i just hate it

i hate the feeling of being insecure

u are good

too good till sometimes, i questioned myself that are u really meant for me or am i just dreaming?

many people out there are better than me

why would u want this lousy guy?

i always think that

i scare

i don't know

i just scare

i love u called me

i love the way i hug u

i love the smell of u

i love the kiss

i love u scold me *pai chi*

i love u